MOTIVATION???!!! Anyone???

HELP! I need help getting motivated to clean this house. I mean, don't get me wrong, we in NO WAY live in filth, just clutter. I feel like I need a maid, but I am like Monica on Friends, and no body is touchin' my stuff LOL. Anyway...share your cleaning habits...I need a ritual, I need motivation!

Random Thoughts and worries in this CRAZY head of mine....

So, today at the dinner table, I sat and listened to Trinity and Shannon talking, Trinity talking to me, Shannon talking to me...Tristan sitting painfully quiet. I realized that he hasn't said ANY new words lately. He has been just that..painfully quiet. I can't even begin to tell you what it feels like to think and dwell upon the idea that your son may never formulate original speech. Spontaneous words that we so take for granted, "please" "thank you" "mama" "I love you"..."hello" "bye"....so far all the talking that Tristan has done has been upon our prompting..so, essentially, he is copying words that he hears. I try everyday to remain positive and know that he will catch up, but, I gotta tell you..today is one of my days. I am having my DOWN day. SO, here I am, I am going to be in my little hole for a bit and then I will pull myself out. I feel a little trapped down here. I feel almost suffocated..I want so badly to help him get out of his "place"...but sometimes I don't think he understands me. It is maddening. I want to just open up all the doors where he has locked himself away and crawl in there for a minute. I wish I knew what it was that he is thinking. Do you think he thinks about me? Do you think he understands what I am saying to him? I want to believe that he does. That he really is just going to catch up. So, lets do that...help me out of this hole for a second....ah, there we go. *dusting myself off* Tristan is going to catch up. He WILL talk on his own when he is GOOD and READY and fuck anyone that tries to say otherwise, including his mama. Thanks for listening, I won't go down there again for a while, but, when I do...because you know I will...please listen again.