Newsletter for litte t - Month 19

19 months, already....slow down time, I have to slow you down! Tristan, you are keeping me on my toes buddy...trying more adventurous things, standing on tables, climbing up stairs and hanging your toes off the edge. Your balance is improving ever so slightly, but you are still a little weeble wobble. You started your therapy this month, both speech and occupational therapy...I know that probably doesn't make much sense to you now, but know that they are things that are going to help you use your body better, to be able to walk steadier, to play with toys you have trouble working. Ultimately, I want you to feel confident when you do things, I know that you get frustrated, just as any child would when you try and try and just can't do a certain task...I know it is even harder since you can't talk to me, so we are going to help you learn to communicate to us in other ways...through pictures and sign, until you are ready to talk. Your sessions will help you learn to understand the way that things work, include you! You are so cute. I love watching you sleep...your underbite smile melts my heart and I just adore the way that you cling to me. You are my sunshine, and I look forward to every day that I learn more about you.

Newsletter for little t : Month 17

So, you are growing up on me little man....little big man I mean. Why do you have to grow so fast? I remember feeling you in my tummy...moving around so much, kicking and squirming, you felt amazing in there, but nothing compared to holding you for the first time...all 10 lbs of you! You are so sweet Tristan, I love it when you touch my face when you nurse, and on that note...what is up with the nursing lately?? I don't mind it, but geesh, you have been eating enough to feed a small country. I don't think you understand this Christmas thing, aside from trying to eat the "balls" off of the tree, you could care less about the shiny objects. I am really liking the new hugging thing that you have been doing when I pick you up. You stretch your arms out really wide, wrap them around me, and just hold on for about 10-15 seconds, being really still...I love it. I love you bub bub, you are amazing.

Love Momma.

Newsletter for Big T : Month 50

You turned 50 months on the 4th, you are so much more mature than most children your age, both refreshing and frightening all in the same breath. This month is a fun one for everyone, it's Christmastime again. I have a mixed feeling when talking to you about Santa and such...you are incredibly smart, and honestly, I have this feeling you know that we are lying to you about the man in red and you are just going along with it to appease us...which, I do appreciate. All in the same, I do sometimes feel a tiny bit bad that we have resorted to a type of bribery by means of "Be a good girl because Santa is coming..." but hey, your 4 and sometimes if that is what it is going to take to make you stop asking me the same question OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER....well, you get the picture. You asked me where he gets in the house since we don't have a chimeny...I at first said the attic, then you had this sort of startled look on your face and looked up to the ceiling in this way as if thinking "So, there is someone in the attic???" in retrospect, that was probably a really stupid thing to say to a recently scared of the dark 4 year old...so, I quickly backpedled and said that we gave him a key. PHEW, averted disaster, again..this parenting thing is not as easy as it looks my dear. You will see, you are going to have a smarty pants little girl too, and coming up with cleverly witty things to trick her will be hard! I love you boo boo bean, thanks for keeping me on my toes.

Love Momma.